fuck this shit.

last night. ate some cereal as insurance on a slowly declining “good number” – went to bed, drifted off. dex alarm. 50 and dropping. fruit snacks. sleep. up. mouth tastes terrible, thanks overnight rebound high. breakfast, okay. spiked. boo. class start, still spiking. level off, but I’m starving, protein bar… SPIKE. barely staying with it and not asleep in class, this is fucking embarassing. insulin kicks in right before lunch, I finally think clearly… and now it’s time for food (also, I’m hungry again), correction override, bolus, more coffee… TBD. fuck this. I’m going to try to go learn/review all the shit I should have been able to pay attention to all morning now… fuck you diabetes, fuck you.