Dear Diabetes, you suck.

a front end developer who also happens to have type 1 diabetes

Dexcom doesn’t make alarm clocks…

Screen Shot 2014-07-15 at 10.15.34 AMSo… I woke up late this morning. Apparently I turned my alarm off, both of them… in additional to my conventional alarms, I also ignored my CGM… for 4 hours… that’s right… from roughly 3:30am to 7:30am I was “in the red” and I just kept “snoozing” my Dexcom. This is not the first time this has happened, and yes, I am precisely aware of how bad this is. I have written about how scared I am about going low and dying and no one knowing because I live alone. The CGM was supposed to help all of that by warning me when I’m low and helping me fix it before it was a problem… not condition me to ignore yet another alarm. I cannot believe that I am being so callous with my own health. I know better than this. Full disclosure, this is not the first time I have done this. Second disclosure, the only reason this morning made me really mad is because I realized I had polluted four hours of sleep when I could have just gotten up, had a juice box, and then not been woken up by the CGM alarm every twenty minutes for the rest of the morning. Also, oversleeping my other alarms, because I was exhausted from “snoozing” the CGM all morning, made me late for the dentist — an appointment I loathe anyway, and then add being late on top of that… #notafan. Worst of all, none of those things are the primary reason that I should be upset about this morning. I am playing with my health. If I do not take the CGM warnings seriously, or at least double check them, I will ignore it one too many times and end up in the hospital (if I’m lucky) or dead (if I’m not lucky). It scares me to write this right now, but I feel like I need to write it in order for me to really hear it from myself. I need to not do this anymore. This is not acceptable. This is not okay. I will do better.

5 Comments

  1. I have had this EXACT same problem recently! I snoozed my high alarm for SIX HOURS the other day. Oh my gosh, I was so angry at myself when I woke up in the morning and realized I had been in a straight line at 200 the entire night!

  2. Although i don’t have a CGM I feel the same way. I have a pump though. If I’m high or low before bed I set alarms to wake me to check and I never do anything about it. I switch the alarm off and go back to sleep. The other night I got up to go the toilet and I checked my blood sugar just before I got back into bed, it was at 4 exactly and, in my sleepy state, I thought nothing of it and just climbed back into bed. Hope you feel better soon and don’t beat yourself up about it.

  3. Thanks for sharing — It is definitely a problem/annoyance. The worst part is it’s not even good sleep when you are doing that because the alarm is waking you up… then I wake up and I don’t know which is making me feel shitty… blood sugar or lack of quality sleep… #fuckdiabetes

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