I’ve realized that when I write, I often think of 3 or 4 things that I want to talk about, which will result in rapid fire posts over a few days, and then I won’t write for a week. I have come to the conclusion that my writing mirrors the way I’m processing my feelings around diabetes, or really anything stressful. I allow myself to feel, and to process, only in intervals, so as to not interfere with the rest of my life. I’m not sure that this is entirely healthy, but it is what it is. I’m working on accepting my diagnosis, and what it entails, on a daily basis — trying to reset each day, not feeling guilt or shame for previous failures, or become overconfident because of a previous good day. I am trying, with varied success, to just do my best each day, and let that be enough. Now I just need to tell myself that one or two hundred times, and then maybe I’ll get it.